everything is beyond expectation..

As we progressed and move on with life, our friend there is taking one step back. His condition has not improved which sends us all in a gloomy mood. I never expect this to happen. Never. When I first knew the news, I thought he be okay after a few therapy. I never expect it. I couldnt expect it to happen to my friend, a young pal.... Everything is just beyond expectation. I'm sad. I'm angry at myself too... I felt as if I've lived my life selfishly, as we enjoyed, someone out there who used to be wth us has to be bedridden and in sick bay. I hate it! I want everyone to be in as well. No exclusion....